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[25 May 2006|10:15am] |
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The reason why you complain about meeting shitty guys is because you end up turning down guys that care about something MORE than sex because we're not interesting or 'gangstuh' enough or don't want to have sex just yet.
Yeah, rather off-hand post. Just an interesting thing that popped up in mind.
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[18 Apr 2006|10:22pm] |
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I HAVE PURPOSE.
YES!
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[26 Feb 2006|12:36am] |
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Spent half the day taking a test then coming home to clean. A lot.
Me tired.
When all you gotta keep is strong, move along move along
Like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone, move along move along
JUST MAKE IT THROUGH!!
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[18 Feb 2006|12:16pm] |
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There are times where you gotta step back and just let stuff happen. Because that way, you've got plenty to talk about when you get back!
So a belated Merry Christmas, Happy New Year and Happy Valentine's Day / Singles Awareness Day. LOL.
Not much goin' on right now, really. The only 'big' news is that I'm dealing with new braces. They're not as bad as I thought they would be. The proceedure was nothing compared to wisdom teeth, UGH.
I think I've lost maybe 10 pounds from being unable to chew anything for a while. That's slowly changing though, and I'm getting back to my eating habits. Activities like dance, Karate and DDR is keeping me slim, so that's cool.
I bought some new shirts. I have:
- An "I scored with the princess" shirt, featuring Luigi running away with Princess Peach.
- "Life has so many choices" shirt, featuring the Street Fighter 2: Hyper Fighting player select.
- "I am a Street Fighter" shirt, featuring the Street Fighter logo, with a picture of SF3 Ryu next to it.
Needless to say, I'm set as far as shirts go for now.
Other stuff later!
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[02 Dec 2005|07:50pm] |
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When does loving someone become abusive to yourself?
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[01 Nov 2005|11:32pm] |
I'm such a noob at this.
Nabbed from lokienvy!
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a city to go visit with you.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you (that i can recall).
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.
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[01 Nov 2005|11:25pm] |
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Between this post and last post, there's been a couple of noteworthy things that ... well, if they weren't noteworthy I wouldn't post 'em up here.
Ask and you shall receive. I got my wish, and she crushed me one more time. I needed that, so at least now everything can fully go forward. I didn't have the heart to admit to how I felt .. but from the way things sounded in the conversation, I didn't have to. And I was right, nothing would have come of it. So much to effort on that part.
So what does this mean now? Nothing. If girls happen, then girls happen. No more possible 'prospects' or people to keep an eye on. I don't enjoy their company as much if I'm constantly worried whether or not she likes me based on whatever I do or say in those moments. I hope this revelation will make things a little easier for me.
Spent Halloween going to class, going to Boba Loca, singing Karaoke, taking an Anatomy lab exam and then going out to eat with Won, Shany and Brian. Dinner with them was especially good times .. as that's where the above 'epiphany' kicked in. I enjoyed the company of friends so much last night, it's undescribable. But hanging with them made me remember how important it is to just have friends to fall back on.
I almost dressed as John Cena this year for Halloween. 'Cept I didn't get all the parts of the costume in on time. Maybe next year I will. THE CHAMP IS HERE!
I think that's it for now. For those commenting, I've got a question for you all:
What sort of emotional weight does a hug have to you? Like, from a friend or so that likes giving out hugs or receiving them.
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[25 Oct 2005|10:40pm] |
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Hey guys, thanks for your support on the last post and those of you who took time to read it. I appreciate it. That day was just .. egh, not going my way at all.
Since then though, things have been getting better and better. Today, I kicked my Japanese Literature midterm's ass. Like, totally. In fact, there's a shoeprint on the damn test to show where I inserted my foot .. which is into its ass. Heh, okay, so maybe that's a little too much from my fantastical brain, but hey, I'm feeling great and that's what ya get when I'm in a good mood.
Monday was good times. I finished Karate and had about 6 hours of nothing before Anatomy lab at 6 pm. So I went to lunch with my friend Mark at a cheap Chinese place off campus. And then .. I get a call from Won, telling me that he and Shany (Shany and Won are my Anatomy lab partners and good friends, BTW) are in Garden Grove and are going to KARAOKE THAT AFTERNOON BEFORE LAB.
Yes, that's right. Karaoke in the middle of the afternoon. Sorry, that's just odd to me. About as odd as having a bunch of juggling bears around. But that's another reference for another time.
So I go and meet them at a Boba Loca, hang out there for a little bit before going to the Karaoke place for the afternoon, 13 bucks an hour. That's a sweet-ass rate, seriously. But yeah, Won likes to sing a lot of Korean songs. He's like me when it comes to boyband songs, 'cept he sings in Korean. He lines up song after song, scoring 90+ on each .. so I figure, I gotta start lining up my songs, or else I'd never get to sing. (So that's how you wanna play, eh Won? We'll play then!) So I roll in there some Elton John, some Craig David and a little bit of Weezer. Good fun, I tell ya. Nothing like singing Weezer's "Buddy Holly" on karaoke.
After lab, Shany, Won and I go meet up with Won's friend, Brian, at Red Robin. Ate, talked for a little bit out in the parking lot. At 10:30, it's like someone turned off Cerritos. The mall just shut down completely. Though it's understandable, since it's Monday. But yeah, to sum it up, Monday was some of the best, clean fun I'd had in such a long time. I really enjoy the company of my friends, as there's always someone there to laugh with you or laugh at you. Both happen to me.
Social Dance thingy is coming up on November 18th, definitely looking forward to that. If you guys are interested, it's at the CSULB Student Union, just 5 bucks from 6-7 'til midnight I believe.
God's been really good to me lately. As He always has been and always will be.
'Should definitely thank Him more each day.
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| Emo post, I know. But it has to get out somehow .. |
[20 Oct 2005|09:26pm] |
(Those of you who read this, feel free to comment, you're welcome to say anything.)
Momentary insanity? White-hot emotions? It's boiling over right now.
I can't tell you how I feel right now. I don't know if I'll ever be able to tell you how I feel again, actually. But it's the same feeling I've always had all along, and it hasn't changed. It's just too bad that lightning rarely strikes twice in the same place. What we had was exactly just that. It was gone before I could finish blinking. I can't help but feel this way still, even though it's been a good amount of time since we split. I thought that maybe my feelings would change in that time, but I was wrong. If I told you all this to your face, it would only make things more complicated. On top of that, I don't think you'd be willing to give us another try. It pains me. I know you're still out looking for what you want, and I hope someday you do find exactly that, because if anyone deserves to be happy, it is someone as warm, genuine, and compassionate as you. You don't read any of my blogs, neither LiveJournal or Xanga, but part of me hopes that one day you do read this post. At the same time, part of me wants to keep this buried and hidden from you forever. I just want you to crush me one more time so that I know for sure that something between you and I will never exist again. It sounds rather harsh, I know .. but it saves me getting my hopes up over nothing. GOD, if you only knew what was on my mind ..
But for the sake of our friendship's status currently, these words will never escape my lips to see the light of day .. until I feel it's right, or until you fall for someone else. If or when you do, then I can finally put my heart and my thoughts at ease, because that too will bring me some sort of peace.
.. Thanks.
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| A first! |
[15 Oct 2005|10:39pm] |
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This will be my first post simulcasting between my Live Journal and my new Xanga! So hopefully there'll be a little bit for everyone in this post.
The last couple of weeks have been eventful and busy. Exams left and right, with the occasional breather in between. But with Anatomy and Chemistry kicking my ass .. one begins to wonder if I'll ever reach the end of my studies. Or even the Nursing program itself. Times are getting really tough, and I find that God's the only solace from my fears of failure. When I think about failing, so many questions arise in my head. The dominant one being, "What're my parents going to do if I fail?"
It's a question I've been digging at for so long, and yet I still don't know the answer. I hope I never have to find out. But the truth is, my ass needs to get in gear, because high school is long over; my career and my future is at stake. No more hiding behind excuses, everything is on MY shoulders now. It's times like this that I'm glad I have a great network of friends on and off the computer .. they relieve me of my stress and travel with my on this rough journey toward complete adulthood.
The positive thing that's come out of this is that my "singleness" and my (lack of) lovelife haven't bothered me so much recently as it has before. I don't know where I stand with women right now, and it's a little frustrating. I was thinking I should just blindly be nice to each one I meet and maybe someone'll swing my way and stop by for a while. Something like that. I just want her to like me for me and for who I am.
The guy on my Live Journal icon and my Xanga background is a wrestler. I consider him a great role model for me (LOL, yes I know I sound like I'm 8 years old). He's "The Phenomenal" AJ Styles. 2-time NWA-TNA Triple Crown Champion, which means he has won every championship in that company TWICE. On top of that, the guy's faithful and real big into his Christianity. Awesome wrestler AND he's into the God thing. What more could I ask for in a possible role model?
So I pray that God gives me the strength and the tools to get me where I need to be. I know that the challenges He has set before me are not impossible.
And at this point, I rest my fate with Him.
God Bless,
Marco.
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| The nutritional facts .. OF WATER!! |
[23 Sep 2005|10:41pm] |
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"What that implies is .. is that there's water with bits of fat floating around in it.
And I need to find that water, 'cause that's the tasty kind of goddamn water!"
LOL, okay, so I'm watching the Lewis Black "Black on Broadway" special. It's hilarious.
But yeah, it's been a while since I've posted. Things've calmed and peaked once again.
I've taken a bit of a shining to my Anatomy lab partner. She says she's looking for a long-term relationship, so at some point, I suppose I'll apply for that. Wish me luck, yes?
Otherwise, school, Karate, choir, online stuff, everything's sorta taking a toll on me. I just started the semester, I think I'm ready for another vacation.
.. Or a girlfriend. At least then, every day would feel like a vacation. Catch you later!
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| Ugly taste in the mouth .. |
[12 Sep 2005|12:07am] |
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Shot down, again. Okay. I understand you want to cheer me up after shooting me down by saying that I'm a really nice person and that I'd be the perfect boyfriend ..
.. but please understand, that after turning me down, that doesn't sound true.
Comments, yeah?
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| Heh heh, me such a geek. 8D |
[03 Sep 2005|11:15pm] |
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Okay, well, yeah, a few things to post on tonight.
First thing's first, I had a moment of clarity in which .. I rememebered why I need to do well and become a nurse. Why I need to get into the Nursing program and why I need to go on and be a successful person in this proverbial hedge maze called life. I need to make it and succeed not just for my intermediate family, not just for my family here in America, but for my family left behind in the Philippines. For my niece who is so close to finishing college (it's a few less years over there to graduate), but can't go to class to finish because her mother is a stupid bitch who takes the money we send over there and uses it to pay off her debt that she's gathered over the years. G'damnit, put your damn KIDS in front first then fix yourself. Why should your daughter suffer because YOU'VE got money problems? Leave her outta your shit.
And so, I need to succeed, to make my family proud. Because they need me to. I strive for the mere smile they may crack the day I graduate with my bachelor's degree with RN certification. For the family back home that would KILL to have the opportunity I do. I can't let it go to waste.
Second, I'm such a nerd. I bought a 10 dollar replica of the WWE Championship belt. Not the John Cena spinner-issue, but the WWE Undisputed Title. I wear it proudly, not as the champion, but as someone who admires it! YES! 8D
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[03 Sep 2005|08:43am] |
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Welp, when I signed up for Japanese class, I knew what I was getting into. And now, I have a quiz on hiragana next Tuesday. Slightly nervous, but it's okay, I should get most of them. I hope. I know for sure that I need to study it.
Wish I could post more, but really, my mind's stuck on that right now. Until I say that everything's alright.
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[27 Aug 2005|10:01pm] |
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School is within 72 hours away, and this semester is aiming to kill me. I hope that my enthusiasm for these classes keep me alive academically (Japanese and Asian Literature). Overall, I am eager to begin!
But I digress on purpose. Here, I shall dissect my post to make things easier for people to read. That way, they can decide what they want to read and what not to.
[ Week In Review! ]
Last couple of days have been a bit .. meh to busy. I went to Arcade Infinity to see if they had Neo Geo Battle Colisseum yet, and they didn't quite yet. I'm itching to try it out, mainly 'cause it's a new 2D fighter, and I'm willing to try MOST 2D fighters out at least once. On an interesting sidenote, the guy who's most known for producing the Street Fighter II series is now working with Capcom to release a 2D Dragon Ball Z game, I think it's called Chou Dragon Ball Z. Should be awesome if it's anything like Marvel vs. Capcom. At least, that's how I'd expect it to be.
Today I went and helped a few friends get situated back at their dorm. Turns out they'll be rooming with much of the same people they'd been rooming with for all of last year, so some new faces and old faces. Which is nice, 'cause meeting too many new people at one time makes me a little uneasy, heh. I get nervous around girls I've never met before. I love that teenage anxiety, LOL.
Tomorrow, I've got a few religious obligations but all and all, with Buriki-2 tomorrow as well, it should be pretty relaxing and chill. I was worried that I'd be needing God the most for this weekend and so far He has provided. Amen to the man who has never turned his back on me.
[ Game Stuff ]
My PS2's been really bitchy lately. It whines, scratches, scrapes.. the only thing that really works on my PS2 now are 2D games, like KoF, SF Anniversary, Disgaea and whatnot. I'm hoping to somehow get a new PS2 soon .. which I sorta doubt is gonna happen. I can't play Burnout 3 (voted best racing game by G4, BTW), Smackdown or any of my other 3D games. It blows. But at least I have SF3 and Disgaea to hold me over. Speaking of Burnout by the way, the game's got a great licensed soundtrack.
[ Thoughts and stuff. The Emo Hole! ]
I really can't wait to see what this semester has in store for my social life, really. I'm excited about meeting new people and at the same time, sorta anxious. -- FREAKIN' AOL JUST BOOTED ME, one moment. ........... I'll add more later, since Disgaea's distracting me. LOL.
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[21 Aug 2005|10:31pm] |
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In contrast to yesterday, I didn't have anyone flip me off today. Or so I think. Today, I spent most of the day home, aside from going to church for 10:30 mass and dropping my aunt off at work. My parents are with my godparents at the Pechanga casino somewhere east of here, so they won't be back for a while. Hopefully they scored some cash, I could use some money to buy either:
A) Smackdown vs. RAW 2006
B) Resident Evil 4 (PS2)
C) Okami
D) Genji (or something, I know it's Capcom's Dynasty Warriors thingy)
E) Onimusha 4
'Course, I still gotta buy one more Asian Literature book and my Japanese textbook. This next semester's gonna be fun.
If I survive.
On the other side of things, I had a good talk with someone that I really needed to talk to. At least my mind and my chest are clear of those things now. Though I knew things weren't going to go the way I had hoped .. it was worth telling her, you know? I'm a very honest person when it comes to my emotions and whatnot. So good luck to her, I know she'll find someone worthwhile and, y'know, in the same time zone as her. LOL.
As for me, the semester's coming up soon, in a week actually. So many things happened through the course of my last two semesters, I'm almost eager to see what it's got in store for me this time around. Whether or not I'm ready to face it, I'm really excited.
Girls come and go. But sometimes, they never come 'round at all.
As always, throw in a few cents, I always appreciate comments!
Gotta pick up my aunt now. Peace!
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| Now that that's done .. mostly. |
[20 Aug 2005|11:19pm] |
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Finally got most of it done. Gimme your opinion though, is the background too bright?
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I just chose it 'cause it goes with my wrestling Squirtle, LOL.
Now for a half post.
Yeah, everyone seemed really angry today. Sorta irritated me, but discouraged me more than anything else. Had a 50-60 year old lady flip me off while I was driving. Granted, it was my fault that I didn't see her crossing the street, but I stopped at a good distance from her. But I'm glad she found that I was worth the time to stop in the middle of the street, to get off her cellphone, flip me off, call me a bitch, and continue walking like nothing happened.
The more I think about it, the more I realize that maybe there are a few women out there worth punching. Just a few, I promise.
Talk to y'all later.
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[20 Aug 2005|09:27pm] |
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LOL, OH GOD, THIS LOOKS WORSE THAN WHEN I FIRST STARTED MY MYSPACE. Okay okay .. work in progress. I'll try to make it look bearable.
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